Monday, 21 January 2008

Remote Play

Its a curious thing when two want a third to be an unwitting player. Don't get me wrong I love helping where I can, but let me play too!



I want to feel that warm sluggishness that sweeps over me when I get turned on, a bizarre counterpoint to the sharpening of my senses. The voyeur in me breathes in deeply.



They have stretched their play boundaries a long way but need the next buzz, the next event to fuel the fire. Well matched, they hunt as a pair, it increases their chances of success. Bisexual? Definitely. I have to concur, why limit your field. Others may think they are just plain greedy. Others probably resent their freedom without questioning the price that's paid for it.



Do they have rules? I am sure they do. Their core values would be stronger than most and they would make conscious decisions on actions they want/have taken.They communicate constantly. They play up to the targets weakness and leverage off the need to help. Our need to feel good through helping others. I find it fascinating.



The question has always been there, on both sides. Would we, should we? Could we, never comes into it, alphas aren't programmed that way. Mostly my initial decisions are stuck too. I think through the scenarios and realise that the outcomes are less in my favour than theirs and pass.


That changed recently but not enough for me. I have a balance to keep and this is too weighted. The looks, the casual touch, the weaving of suggestion in everyday chat. Then the calls, one silent one talking, eliciting response. The subtlest shift in breathing suggests the game is on. The discordant back ground. Answers unacknowledged as pleasure kicks in.



Hedonism in theory is one thing but chasing that thrill at any cost can suggest a crazy lack of self control. Pleasure seeking, interspersed within our daily routines, is the pinnacle for most of us. Creating the environment where we can garner the best experience within a frame work allows us to maintain our sanity and sense of reality.



I admire their tenacity, their creativeness and ability to think on their feet. As long as its on their dime, that innocents aren't hurt, I will watch with a smile, and who knows, even play catalyst again...

No comments: