fantasies...

are my secret playground, things that excite me that run like films in my head. i dont have to fantasise within pc parameters, or justify myself to anyone.

apparently the top female fantasy is of rape. this is dangerous water as women dont actually want that, rather they want a man to be strong, take the lead. perhaps it means that the responsibility is taken away as well?

is it similar to men wanting to watch girl on girl but only if they are hot?

my current favourite is going to the adult cinema on brewer street. my companion would be sure of the rules but teases me with what could happen. cue pussy spasms, real. i blush as we reach the entrance, he pays and into the black we plunge.

the cinema is sleazy but the upholstery clean. dirty is good but grimy is not. its my fantasy after all so there. the carpet is sticky as we pad down the corridor. there is a glass cabinet displaying dildos and lube. everything is covered in dust. the smell is yuk, stale sweat, urine, rubber and poppers overlaid with cabbage; eau de pervert.

the film is just starting but no one is there to watch it. well perhaps to get the juices flowing. i want to sit in the front but chicken out as faces turn towards us. like moles, they sniff the air. blind but desperate not to miss anything.

please god they are good looking, or at least clean. here reality and fantasy diverge. i edit out all signs of pot bellies, sweaty small hands and loose mouths. you know the ones where their saliva oozes out.

i sit down keeping my eyes on the screen my hand involuntarily reaches down to my lap. wow that woman just took a huge... fingers are stroking my hair as mine start stroking my knickers. so wet. i have to pause so i can catch my breath. he squeezes my hand reassuringly then pushes it past the elastic guiding it to curl at the mouth of my c**t.

anyone want to watch me fuck this slut? i start as he says this, damn hes off script.

who wants to suck him off? best i can do as lust snakes round me. he laughs and presents a hard cock to the man on his left. its overwhelming me...

slurp, slurp, slurp and i cum...